For Every Win there is Loss

I don’t really know what I expected to feel. When Chris’ treatment was over. Maybe I was expecting excitement, relief, joy, I was definitely expecting to feel something. Instead I just felt kind of, numb. I’d never allowed myself to think about the day his treatment would come to an end. It had always felt […]

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Take Everyday as it Comes

I’m going to let you into a little secret about how I’ve got through the majority of the year. I stopped thinking long-term. We like to think long-term don’t we. Us humans. We have a picture in our heads about how our lives, in general, will turn out. We like to imagine what it will […]

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You’ve just got to get on with it

Until you are faced with the unimaginable you can’t comprehend ever having to deal with it. You hear, watch and read about awful, heartbreaking things happening to other people, other families, other people’s children. Illness, accidents, loss. If you’re like me, your heart hurts just thinking about it. Although you don’t fully understand what they’re […]

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In Departments

We park in car park D. Usually we go in past department 1 Where people are treated during the day But if the weathers nice we’ll go up the road straight to department 42. Where each Tuesday starts. We wait near department 40 for bloods People wait near department 42 for transport home. It’s busy, […]

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The leg is home.

In the early days of Chris’ diagnosis I was very black and white. The leg had to go. It was easy for me to say, it wasn’t my leg, my life. But for me it was simple. If the leg as it was stayed, infested with a tumour taking over, damaging bones, nerves, muscles, trying […]

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