A Tiny Toddler in a Big Boy Bedroom

14/09/2016.Reading time 3 minutes.

I kept him with me for far too long. Next to me. In touching distance. So I could hear his breathing, his murmurs, his movements, through the night. So I could watch him in those quiet moments just before I fell asleep. Lily was in her own room from when she was around 6 months. […]

Return

10/09/2016.Reading time less than 1 minute.

Thoughts Fixed in a now, Much different To the picture Once painted of life. Away, From a daydream Reoccurring, Of return to a simpler time. Look ahead, Moving forward as needed Creating distance between here and before Unable to go back. Uncertain Hopeful Anticipating colours Not yet added And for what then will bring.

I can’t be there

07/09/2016.Reading time 4 minutes.

I wasn’t there when Chris was told by our GP he had a tumour. He went to the appointment by himself. If I’m honest I don’t think at that point either of us believed that it would ever be anything really serious. Really life changing. I was at work. He rang me. It was the […]

Month in a Minute – August 2016

06/09/2016.Reading time 2 minutes.

August. Turned out to be a strange old month and I can’t quite put my finger on why. I had lots of plans to get things done, organised, but the list is still very long and I am still no closer to the house being sorted than I was at the start of summer holidays. […]

I am Strong, but I am tired.

20/08/2016.Reading time 4 minutes.

When they ask, I tell people I’m fine. I am. Fine. It’s not a choice. There is no option. I didn’t wake up one morning and make a conscious decision that this is how I would feel this year. It just is. I wondered for a long time whether I was in denial. About Chris’ […]