Dealing with Cancer in the Family · Thoughts and More

A Spotlight on Reality

I beat them there. I’m not sure how I did it. The ambulance had left our house, blue light flashing, before me. They’d blocked the drive, I wondered if my neighbours would be quietly seething at the inconvenience As I rang my dad and Chris’ mum to make arrangements so the kids still got to… Continue reading A Spotlight on Reality

Dealing with Cancer in the Family · Thoughts and More

He’s going to build a space rocket

He’s going to build a space rocket I snuggled him, asked him if he would stay with me forever ‘No mummy’ he replied ‘I’m going into space when I’m bigger’ ‘I’m going to build a space rocket, go into space, to the stars, see my daddy’ ‘See my daddy in heaven’ It took us back… Continue reading He’s going to build a space rocket

Dealing with Cancer in the Family · Thoughts and More

Another Coffee

I didn’t drink coffee before all this started I was strictly a tea girl. You can’t beat a good strong cup of tea Well brewed and piping hot. Hospital tea is neither of those. The hospitals I’ve become a regular at all have a costa or Starbucks consession now What the people demand and all… Continue reading Another Coffee

Dealing with Cancer in the Family · Thoughts and More

A Smile that Reached his Eyes

I had missed him. I hadn’t realised until I saw it. A Smile His smile. He smiled and he meant it Really meant it. He smiled and it filled his whole face He smiled and it reached his eyes He laughed at a little joke and the laugh was involuntary, Not a planned reaction to… Continue reading A Smile that Reached his Eyes

Dealing with Cancer in the Family · Thoughts and More

Then Before Now

Sometimes I miss my life Life before all of this Our life then The feeling of loss catches me off guard It becomes overwhelming The loss of then, the loss of dreams The simplicity of our existence I miss my worries being forgettable I miss carefree days that didn’t feel wasted I miss not feeling… Continue reading Then Before Now