A Tiny Toddler in a Big Boy Bedroom

I kept him with me for far too long. Next to me. In touching distance. So I could hear his breathing, his murmurs, his movements, through the night. So I could watch him in those quiet moments just before I fell asleep. Lily was in her own room from when she was around 6 months. […]

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The Year of Tin

To You, Wow! 10 Years. There was a moment a while back I wasn’t so sure we’d get to this anniversary. This time last year I did not enjoy buying your anniversary card, I didn’t want to tell you how much of a good husband you were or pick a soppy card brimming with sentiments […]

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When the small boy turned 2

I wasn’t ready last year. To celebrate Sams birthday. I didn’t want to think about it, the date. Didn’t want to be reminded of what had happened, what he went through. The run up made me feel anxious, sick and teary. I wanted to forget. Forget about his traumatic entrance in the world. Forget my […]

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Tiny the Wonder Boy! An Update

Before I start on what may turn out to be a woe is me and my life and why does all this shit keep happening post, although I’ll try my best not to, I need to remind myself that if nearly 2 years ago, when I was with it enough to realise I was actually living […]

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As the New Year Nears

I’ve sat and stared at this page for longer than I should. With words, thoughts, racing round my brain with no way of escaping in a logical or coherent way. It’s late and I really should be in bed, instead I’m here staring at this page. A Blank page. With no idea what will fill […]

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