Adjustments and Laughter

07/03/2017.Reading time 4 minutes.

The past few weeks have been those of adjustment and laughter. Adjusting to news we weren’t expecting. It’s harder to hear the second time round, you’re very aware of the what a cancer re occurrence so soon can mean. Adjusting to knowing that there will be no cure for Chris’ cancer. He will have to […]

The Opposite of Easy

09/02/2017.Reading time 2 minutes.

It’s been hard Hard to watch him in so much pain. Hard to see his face contort in anguish as he struggles to find comfort. Unable to find any relief. Unable to get a break. The tumour in his back now pushing on nerves. ‘Causing pins and needles then shooting pains thorugh his body, to […]

Cancer is a Stupid Idiot

30/01/2017.Reading time 2 minutes.

I made my daughter cry. My heart was broken and I was breaking hers. To make sure she would be able to deal with what the future might hold. Because I had promised her a year ago I would always be honest with her. So she knew what was going on, in the hope that […]

For Every Win there is Loss

11/01/2017.Reading time 5 minutes.

I don’t really know what I expected to feel. When Chris’ treatment was over. Maybe I was expecting excitement, relief, joy, I was definitely expecting to feel something. Instead I just felt kind of, numb. I’d never allowed myself to think about the day his treatment would come to an end. It had always felt […]

Take Everyday as it Comes

17/10/2016.Reading time 5 minutes.

I’m going to let you into a little secret about how I’ve got through the majority of the year. I stopped thinking long-term. We like to think long-term don’t we. Us humans. We have a picture in our heads about how our lives, in general, will turn out. We like to imagine what it will […]