Life doesn’t stop

When the unimaginable happens.

The days keep moving forward

Away from life before

Then starts to fade into memory.

The world keeps turning

People continue to lead their lives

Life does not stop.

There’s still work and school and bills to pay

Washing to be done, dishes to be cleaned, food to be bought.

Normal everyday things don’t go away.

The world does not stand still.

The universe does not allow you infinite space

No matter how much you will it to.

Time seems to be getting away from me

From us.

I’m still not sure I’m doing enough

Still not sure I’m making the most of what we have been given.

I want to hold on

Hold on to time and not let it go

Take a grip of it.

Make it understand I need more of it

That however much is planned will never be enough.

Tell time I promise to use it wisely

Even amongst the everyday.

That I promise to fill all of it with love and laughter

Especially when I wake up on the wrong side of the bed.

That I’ll makes sure it’s full of all the other things that make us happy.

I know time won’t listen.

I know time will tell me I should be doing this anyway

Regardless of how much it affords us now

We should have been doing this before.

Before Cancer

We put off so much

Waited for too long to plan adventures

Left it too long to spend time with the ones we love

As life got in the way

As there was washing to be done, dishes to be cleaned and food to be bought.

Wasted some of the time we had been given.

We should have lived each and every moment as if time were running out

Because now it is, it will never be enough

We will never have enough.

I want to speak to time and tell it to slow down

So our forever really is

Forever.