Letters to Chris

I would choose you every time

To You, It’s getting harder This life of ours. We have been swept up in this storm for so long Carried along at break neck speed from day-to-day Month to month Year to year Given no time to second guess what’s coming. No time to take a moment. Take stock of what’s going on To… Continue reading I would choose you every time

Dealing with Cancer in the Family · Thoughts and More

He’s going to build a space rocket

He’s going to build a space rocket I snuggled him, asked him if he would stay with me forever ‘No mummy’ he replied ‘I’m going into space when I’m bigger’ ‘I’m going to build a space rocket, go into space, to the stars, see my daddy’ ‘See my daddy in heaven’ It took us back… Continue reading He’s going to build a space rocket

Dealing with Cancer in the Family · Thoughts and More

Another Coffee

I didn’t drink coffee before all this started I was strictly a tea girl. You can’t beat a good strong cup of tea Well brewed and piping hot. Hospital tea is neither of those. The hospitals I’ve become a regular at all have a costa or Starbucks consession now What the people demand and all… Continue reading Another Coffee

Dealing with Cancer in the Family · Thoughts and More

A Smile that Reached his Eyes

I had missed him. I hadn’t realised until I saw it. A Smile His smile. He smiled and he meant it Really meant it. He smiled and it filled his whole face He smiled and it reached his eyes He laughed at a little joke and the laugh was involuntary, Not a planned reaction to… Continue reading A Smile that Reached his Eyes

Thoughts and More

No good comes from hope

It’s not good for me It creeps in, a little at a time Normally during times of relative calm Without me even noticing until it’s too late Until it’s at the forefront of my thoughts Clouding judgement and sensibility Hope I need to give up on it It’s a feeling I can’t control once it’s… Continue reading No good comes from hope