Repetitive Procrastination

I crave simplicity Yet live in chaos I crave calm and order Yet I’m the sole cause of my own stress And outside of grief, the emotions and thoughts that churn in my brain Outside of my search for myself The situations I keep repeating The only things that causes me discontent Are my own […]

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Feeling Feelings

I cannot control my feelings The way I feel in or about situations Can any of us? I don’t wake up and decide to feel fed up But we all have days like that I haven’t gone through life trying not to feel ok all of the time Sometimes I really don’t I do not […]

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How do I want to be remembered?

We often sugar coat people in death Praise them for all the good points and forget the bad. We haven’t done that with you I’m quite proud of the fact. We remember the good of course, the way you made us feel That you were a good friend That you worried about people and cared […]

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To avoid the void?

After you died I was so scared of being by myself Being left alone with my own thoughts, fears and feelings Even though in moments of solitude was where I felt you most Where I still felt you near. I started to say yes to everything. Every invite for coffee, every suggestion of lunch, every […]

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A Beginning?

I have made it no secret that I have been lost. I have found myself searching Trying to find, myself To work out who I am now in this world. Unsure of where I fit or how I am to be Not knowing where the person I was once so sure of has gone Or […]

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