Solitary

17/09/2019.Reading time 1 minute.

The Earth in its predictability Continues to turn Moving us forward. In time, everything changes Everything has changed Everything continues to change. As it should, As they should. With you still missing from moments. The black hole surrounds me It does not leave my side. Rocks remain constant, safe Landscapes surrounding, ever evolving Distance expands […]

Repetitive Procrastination

02/05/2019.Reading time 3 minutes.

I crave simplicity Yet live in chaos I crave calm and order Yet I’m the sole cause of my own stress And outside of grief, the emotions and thoughts that churn in my brain Outside of my search for myself The situations I keep repeating The only things that causes me discontent Are my own […]

Feeling Feelings

26/04/2019.Reading time 5 minutes.

I cannot control my feelings The way I feel in or about situations Can any of us? I don’t wake up and decide to feel fed up But we all have days like that I haven’t gone through life trying not to feel ok all of the time Sometimes I really don’t I do not […]

How do I want to be remembered?

28/03/2019.Reading time 5 minutes.

We often sugar coat people in death Praise them for all the good points and forget the bad. We haven’t done that with you I’m quite proud of the fact. We remember the good of course, the way you made us feel That you were a good friend That you worried about people and cared […]

To avoid the void?

22/03/2019.Reading time 4 minutes.

After you died I was so scared of being by myself Being left alone with my own thoughts, fears and feelings Even though in moments of solitude was where I felt you most Where I still felt you near. I started to say yes to everything. Every invite for coffee, every suggestion of lunch, every […]