A Beginning?

I have made it no secret that I have been lost. I have found myself searching Trying to find, myself To work out who I am now in this world. Unsure of where I fit or how I am to be Not knowing where the person I was once so sure of has gone Or […]

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January don’t be cold

I have never quite liked you January Always feeling like you were the longest month With the darkest nights and coldest days And the least amount of money after over indulging at Christmas. A month with nothing exciting to look forward to Where no one wants to make plans. You became the month of bad […]

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The Third Stage?

I dreamt of you, again I’ve only dreamt of you 3 times since you have been missing from us Three times in fifteen months. It surprises me that I don’t dream of you more often. My thoughts in every waking moment are filled with you My dreams and subconscious take a different form. I have […]

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Grief, deaths partner, is a thief

How are you supposed to like the world when you’re not sure you even like yourself anymore. There was a moment there the light was getting brighter, It was joyous. My core felt warmer, the kindling in my soul started to smoulder The dull ache of pain that has been with me since you left […]

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31536000 Seconds

You have been missing from me From us For 31536000 seconds. It is incomprehensible. In that moment all those seconds ago I couldn’t imagine surviving a single second without you Couldn’t imagine a second of life with you not here. I had never let myself think about it I had never believed we would have […]

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