I miss it.
The laughter
The silliness
That my life was once full of.
The jokes, usually at my expense
The quick one liners
The looks and eye-rolls at something I’d said
Something someone else had said, or something we’d seen or heard
The stories of daft things he’d done
The mutual teasing of each other
Taking the piss
Finding things the kids did hilarious, and being able to share that because we created these crazy monkeys.
I miss the easiness the laughter came
I laughed daily
We laughed all the time
He was the funniest person I have ever met.
It’s gone
Now he’s gone.
I do laugh now, I do still find things funny
My sense of humour is still there, I hope.
I am surrounded by good people who have always made me laugh and continue to do so
I laugh at things I watch
Or quotes & pictures that are shared on-line
Memories on Facebook and pictures that pop up
I laugh at the kids and the daft things they say or do
But it’s not the same
Now I mostly laugh alone.
It’s not as often
Not for as long
Not always someone to share it with
It’s not the same
It is less.
Even when things were really bad
When the news was the worst
When we realised time was against us
We still laughed.
He made me laugh.
And now he doesn’t
And I don’t.
I got lost in YouTube the other day, watching clips of comedians and comedy programmes
I laughed, out loud, a lot.
I spent the day laughing and It felt good
To laugh
Because laughter is the best medicine.
It made me realise how much it is now missing from my life.
I need to laugh to feel like I can face the day
But I’ll never laugh like I did with him
I need him here to make me laugh
To make me feel like I can find my way in the world without him.
The laughter he created made me feel invincible
Gave me the ability to look at the world in the light.
Now it’s missing, parts of me are broken
I’m not sure they’ll ever be fixed.
Without it my world is a darker place
I miss it, the laughter.
I miss the life I had that was filled with it.
I miss him here, making me laugh
Making me happy
Making my world a better place.
Mine is Buzzfeed. Stupid photos of people doing stupid things. I must have spent so many days of my life laughing at them. My mate Pippa understands. Sometimes, when she knows I’ve had a hard day, she’ll share one and tag me – a gift to end my evening or fill the early hours.
Laughing is the closest thing to crying, but the furthest away. Love and strength to you as always – you are doing an awesome job xxx
It was 8 out of 10 cats does countdown the other day, endless clips or best bits & I cried laughing. Thank you lovely lady & right back at you xxxx
To have had some one so special can (I only imagine) be so hard to not have beside you. You knew Chris the best and your time together was clearly a time that was filled with love, laughter and tears, you won’t forget any of these times and you shouldn’t, these times made you and Chris the people and parents that you are and the strength that you both have shared can only go to show that love conquers time and space, and your children will love you for this, but time won’t heal, it will simply allow you to go on.
Hi. I love how you remember the good things how your lovely husband made you feel. Those memories will live with you for ever. You inspire me and for that i thank you.
My teenager is dying and how ever hard it gets i hope that your beautiful words will help. Take care of yourself xx
I am so sorry to hear about your teenager, I can’t begin to understand how you are feeling but I do understand the feeling of helplessness. Please let me know if I can do anything, sending you love & strength xx
Thank you. He passed away on Thursday and i just don’t know what to do. I can’t sleep, eat or even talk xx
💕 xxx