I Remember Harder

19/12/2017.Reading time 3 minutes.

I don’t forget. There is no forgetting No way of these troubles being eased I am not lucky enough to forget momentarily For moments of peace If I manage to sleep I wake knowing. There are no moments of realisation No chance to ignore the sadness That clouds all other emotions. Thoughts of you never […]

A Peg for Your Coat

07/12/2017.Reading time 4 minutes.

Your coat still hangs in the cupboard under the stairs. I’ve cleared it out so now it’s on the peg Rather than just dumped on top of all the crap. I found a t-shirt that smelt of you. Dirty obviously, at the bottom of a bag of clothes I’ve folded it and put it in […]

Dreamland Visitor

20/11/2017.Reading time 2 minutes.

You were in my dream I dreamt of you. You’re on my mind In every thought Always. This was the first time you have appeared in my dreams In dreamland. I was surprised because it was recent you In a wheelchair With cancer you Against time you. I always expected to see pre all this […]

Days Are Just Days

08/11/2017.Reading time 3 minutes.

He asked how I was feeling, the doctor I saw him ’cause I’m not ready to go back to work yet, Can’t think about anything except surviving. ‘Sad’ I said, I feel sad. All of the time. Every waking moment. It’s the only word I can find to use It doesn’t even cover it, Just […]

Your Thursday

23/10/2017.Reading time 3 minutes.

I wake. Before the alarm. Of course before the alarm Now always before the alarm. The sadness that took hold the day you left remains, ever-present Lays heavy in my heart. I take a deep breath I go to the loo. We get breakfast Sam is going to nursery Matt takes him ’cause I can’t […]