Then, I wore his ring

I dropped it in the snow It fell off without me even realising it had gone. I was on a snow scooter and fell off. I don’t know what I was doing on a snow scooter either I’m trying to be braver. Usually I wouldn’t have gone near the bloody thing I’m trying not to […]

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About the Man

Sometimes in death we sugar coat We lay accolade the person who has passed Only remembering the good bits. With Chris it’s different I felt it straight away. I knew there was no sugar-coating. We remember the good bits Rightfully laying praise to his name. There were so many good bits He was such a […]

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To have lost and be lost

It is overwhelming sometimes This feeling of loss. Not just of losing you Felt always in every fibre of my being. The feeling I am losing myself. I am lost. For so long I was part of a pair Almost half of my life We spent our young adult lives growing together. I knew who […]

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I will look back

I do not want to say goodbye To this year 2017. I have struggled to think about a new year Starting it without you, A frame of time you will never be in You don’t get to experience. A year without you. A future I didn’t envisage Didn’t really believe I would ever have to […]

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I Remember Harder

I don’t forget. There is no forgetting No way of these troubles being eased I am not lucky enough to forget momentarily For moments of peace If I manage to sleep I wake knowing. There are no moments of realisation No chance to ignore the sadness That clouds all other emotions. Thoughts of you never […]

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