Repetitive Procrastination

02/05/2019.Reading time 3 minutes.

I crave simplicity Yet live in chaos I crave calm and order Yet I’m the sole cause of my own stress And outside of grief, the emotions and thoughts that churn in my brain Outside of my search for myself The situations I keep repeating The only things that causes me discontent Are my own […]

Feeling Feelings

26/04/2019.Reading time 5 minutes.

I cannot control my feelings The way I feel in or about situations Can any of us? I don’t wake up and decide to feel fed up But we all have days like that I haven’t gone through life trying not to feel ok all of the time Sometimes I really don’t I do not […]

How do I want to be remembered?

28/03/2019.Reading time 5 minutes.

We often sugar coat people in death Praise them for all the good points and forget the bad. We haven’t done that with you I’m quite proud of the fact. We remember the good of course, the way you made us feel That you were a good friend That you worried about people and cared […]

To avoid the void?

22/03/2019.Reading time 4 minutes.

After you died I was so scared of being by myself Being left alone with my own thoughts, fears and feelings Even though in moments of solitude was where I felt you most Where I still felt you near. I started to say yes to everything. Every invite for coffee, every suggestion of lunch, every […]

January don’t be cold

30/01/2019.Reading time 2 minutes.

I have never quite liked you January Always feeling like you were the longest month With the darkest nights and coldest days And the least amount of money after over indulging at Christmas. A month with nothing exciting to look forward to Where no one wants to make plans. You became the month of bad […]