To have lost and be lost

It is overwhelming sometimes This feeling of loss. Not just of losing you Felt always in every fibre of my being. The feeling I am losing myself. I am lost. For so long I was part of a pair Almost half of my life We spent our young adult lives growing together. I knew who […]

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I will look back

I do not want to say goodbye To this year 2017. I have struggled to think about a new year Starting it without you, A frame of time you will never be in You don’t get to experience. A year without you. A future I didn’t envisage Didn’t really believe I would ever have to […]

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I Remember Harder

I don’t forget. There is no forgetting No way of these troubles being eased I am not lucky enough to forget momentarily For moments of peace If I manage to sleep I wake knowing. There are no moments of realisation No chance to ignore the sadness That clouds all other emotions. Thoughts of you never […]

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Dreamland Visitor

You were in my dream I dreamt of you. You’re on my mind In every thought Always. This was the first time you have appeared in my dreams In dreamland. I was surprised because it was recent you In a wheelchair With cancer you Against time you. I always expected to see pre all this […]

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Days Are Just Days

He asked how I was feeling, the doctor I saw him ’cause I’m not ready to go back to work yet, Can’t think about anything except surviving. ‘Sad’ I said, I feel sad. All of the time. Every waking moment. It’s the only word I can find to use It doesn’t even cover it, Just […]

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