Grief, deaths partner, is a thief

17/01/2019.Reading time 3 minutes.

How are you supposed to like the world when you’re not sure you even like yourself anymore. There was a moment there the light was getting brighter, It was joyous. My core felt warmer, the kindling in my soul started to smoulder The dull ache of pain that has been with me since you left […]

Regrets, I’ve got a few

02/10/2018.Reading time 5 minutes.

I wish we’d have talked more about death That each time you started the conversation I hadn’t changed the subject. I wish I hadn’t told you not to worry Telling you we had plenty of time to talk about it ‘Cause although you’d accepted it, you were still scared of it You still didn’t want […]

The Lost Voice

12/09/2018.Reading time 5 minutes.

I wonder where my voice has gone Why I find it so difficult to say Anything When once I was so sure of who I was Now I have no idea at all. I mean, I think I’m still me I am me. Just a different version perhaps A shell of a person I once […]

22.06.17

22/06/2018.Reading time 2 minutes.

There’s been many dates, many moments that are burnt into my memory from the last two years or so. The majority wonderful, happy, fun. Memories that keep me going when it feels like the darkness begins to win Moments that the kids talk about, moments that will last a lifetime. Then there’s the one’s I’d […]

A ceremony fit for a party with frills

21/06/2018.Reading time 16 minutes.

I wanted to share these words at the time The words I had written, the readings we had chosen, the music we picked, the friends and family who represented everyone there, the ceremony for the Party with Frills, our vow renewal I didn’t get round to it, the moment passed, other things became more significant […]

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