I will continue to get older

14/06/2018.Reading time 3 minutes.

We were supposed to grow old and grey together That was the plan That was the dream. You’d be greyer than me, We’d have retired early and gone on a big cruise You’d get grumpier, of course you would You’d find more to moan about You’d reach the age you thought was acceptable to wear […]

Driving Home was the Hardest Part

26/04/2018.Reading time 5 minutes.

Driving home was the hardest part. That was the time I’d usually give you a quick call Trying to get through the traffic of a city centre To say hello. Because those few minutes not getting anywhere are pretty boring. I’d ask about your day What you’d been up to How you were feeling If […]

My Thoughts are Against Me

19/04/2018.Reading time 7 minutes.

I have struggled to write Stopped myself from coming here. I have so much I need to say. So much I need to get out of my brain That I want you to understand That I need you to understand. I want you to understand what I feel Understand what life is really like To […]

Missing the Laughter

23/03/2018.Reading time 3 minutes.

I miss it. The laughter The silliness That my life was once full of. The jokes, usually at my expense The quick one liners The looks and eye-rolls at something I’d said Something someone else had said, or something we’d seen or heard The stories of daft things he’d done The mutual teasing of each […]

Then, I wore his ring

06/03/2018.Reading time 4 minutes.

I dropped it in the snow It fell off without me even realising it had gone. I was on a snow scooter and fell off. I don’t know what I was doing on a snow scooter either I’m trying to be braver. Usually I wouldn’t have gone near the bloody thing I’m trying not to […]