It caught up
Quicker than we were ever expecting.
I thought we had more of it
Still hoped that your sheer stubbornness would defy all the odds
That you could still be the exception.
Never wanting to believe that I would ever be here without you.
Never wanting to think about a life without you in it.
What a boring life that would be.
When you dream of forever
No amount of time would ever have been enough.
You’d tell me, it’s hope that breaks your heart.
Well I’ve got to tell you
Not for the first time
You were wrong.
My swinging brick is taking a right hit.
I could spend my time telling everyone how we met
Or about the type of person you were
But right now, as you wanted, you are surrounded by the friends and family you loved.
Brought together by you
Each of them with a story to tell
A joke to share
A memory of time spent with you.
They know you
I don’t have to tell them you are one of the good guys
They know that you could be an annoying pest sometimes too.
Instead I want to say Thank you.
Thank you for always being you.
Thank you for choosing me
For not giving up on me all those years ago.
Thank you for making sure I ate more than burnt tuna pasta.
Thank you for bringing our friends into my life
For loving those already in it.
Thank you for defining the meaning of strength
For not backing down.
Thank you for showing us what it really means to live
Despite the battle you faced.
Thank you for making me laugh like no one else can, every single day
Even when I was the butt of the joke.
Thank you for being the most amazing daddy to Lily & Sam
Even though they’ve inherited your impatience.
Thank you for showing me what it is like to stand in the light
Our lives will always be duller without you here.
Thank you for loving me
For showing me what it feels like to be truly happy.
Thank you for letting me love you.
Thank you for the memories
For the stories we’ll tell Lily and Sam so you are always remembered.
I take comfort knowing that your pain has gone
Now you are at peace and you can rest easy.
Sleep a little better.
I just wasn’t ready
For you to not be around
I’m not sure I ever will be.
I miss you more than I ever believed possible.
I will love you
With all of my swinging brick
Goodnight, God Bless Chris.
See you in dreamland.